Sparks and Butterflies

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I apparently bounced my rent check. Wanna know why? I apparently bought a $600 pda, which I of course was shipping to the fucking Philippines. You know. Of course. Don’t you do that?

Jesus.

And because I moved within the last 30 days, I’ll have to go into a bank to get a new debit card, rather than them just mail it to me. You know – during my OFFICE HOURS.

So far I’ve been on the phone for 1 1/2 hours. Currently listening to bad jazz waiting for “Fraud Prevention” to get on the line. Whatever. Ugg.

I’m taking a short blogging break…

My boss is on vacation – meaning I’m covering for her.

We’re moving next week. Did you hear me? NEXTWEEKOMG

And in between the two we have to take a really inconvenient overnight to Big Bear – family obligation.

Not to mention the moving, and the lack of computer, and lack of phone line etc.

I’ll seeya on the flip side.

There are things a-changin’ around these parts.

Part one: Poe has resigned and given 2 weeks notice. New job search underway pronto. It is my opinion that he was forced out. I don’t have then energy to go into it right now, but suffice it to say that companies who don’t take family friendly needs into consideration suck.

Part two: Depression? On its way out which makes me think that it is probably seasonally related.

Part three: I’m fat. This “trying to make good choices” while not being on a formal program for Future Milfs? Yeah that’s not working so good. I’ve GAINED. And then… Jay took this picture at Baseball’s opening day (after the jump). I’m verging on obese. I know what I used to look like and that’s not it. I’m not an idiot. I know I’ve had two children in two years and I can’t really expect my body to ever go back to the way it was. But the youngest will be 5 in May. Come on. So. I’ve rejoined WW Online. I’ve also joined PUSH. So – I start counting points tomorrow. I may have to quit the paid version if the job hunt lasts more than a couple of months, but I’m going to start it anyway.

Here’s the thing. I feel like crap. I hurt. I’m tired. I’m tired of everything I hate about myself. I’m also starting a weight only related journal for just this stuff. It’s not fully functioning yet, but I’ll link here when it is. I’ll be keeping tracking things there, so I don’t talk about all that stuff so much here. More for my own purposes than anything else. We’ll see how it goes.

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I got nothing! I’ve tried to think of something – anything to write – I apparently have some sort of block. Everything’s status quo – stressed over the same things. yadda yadda. Nothing in the news has struck me to write about. Sheesh.

As some of you may know, I’ve been wanting to lose weight and gain muscle – I want to be strong. So, I’ve been looking around. I don’t really want to go the body building route – however came across this.

Bodybuilding.net is a great resource for individuals looking to get into shape and get their questions answered by other fitness oriented members. Discussion topics include training, supplements, nutrition, fat loss, exercise routines, and much more.

So if that’s the route you want to go, it’s certainly a possible resource for you.

http://www.bodybuilding.net

I have now stopped smoking for 17 hours, 22 minutes, 51 seconds. That translates into 14 cigarettes NOT smoked, for a savings of $3.46! I have increased my life expectancy by 1 hours, 12 minutes, 25 seconds.

Anyone know what’s up with Blogrolling.com? I’ve had to remove their link from my site. It doesn’t seem to be there anymore (and I was just there this morning.)

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