Archive for 'spirit'
Change.
I hate it. Change. I’m terrible at it.
At the same time, if a decision is made, I want it done. I don’t want little steps. I don’t want the transition. I just want it done.
I’m lucky. I have this man, Poe, my husband… When I say I want to do something he always backs me [...]
The Heavy
I don’t really want to go all heavy right now, with BlogHer prep and anticipation at it’s peak. ‘Cause it is for me too! I’m excited, and anxious, and anticipatory - and quite frankly need to get away.
But.
But. I’m waiting. You see, in a few days we’ll find out what, if anything, is causing my [...]
New Game in Town
First - while I went off the deep end a tad bit, my attitude is improved. Nothing’s changed, mind you, but my attitude has improved.
Second - You still have until Monday night to get a free $50 to start your own SmartyPig account!
Third - I’ve decided to turn my social anxiety in a post [...]
The Stuggle to Keep On
While I technically have more time, now that my mother is out of the hospital… I’ve struggled greatly with all of my blogging activities - be it writing here or at Butterviews, or my editing, or anything really, except for reading others. I’ve been trying to come up with a why.
The basic why is I’m [...]
Simplification
Despite appearances, I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth. I’m merely taking stock.
I fled two blogging jobs that weren’t compensating properly for the amount of time it took. I don’t have that much time right now, so I cut them. I’m cutting feeds right and left - things I just skimmed aren’t worth [...]
fog lifts
You know how yesterday I was all angsty? Well this was in clear skies, before the rain, thunder, lightning, flash flooding, mudslides, and tornadoes (?!).
Today I feel great.
So either I felt it coming, and now it’s broke, or something. I don’t know. I’m just that in tune with mother nature, dude.
That or I’m bipolar. Seriously, [...]
sludge
I haven’t been updating often. Here or anywhere else for that matter. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel anxious, restless. Like something’s coming but I don’t know what. I can’t seem to settle or concentrate on anything. I’ve been procrastinating in all my writing. I barely have enough attention in me to [...]
Conversations
It’s no secret that we’re a Christian family. So - discussions about God come up on a regular basis.
This stemmed from a conversation in which Joseph wanted to know how many times he’d been in the hospital, in the car, on the way to school, with one small measly cup of coffee in me.
Joseph: [...]
pondering
Do you ever wonder about your existence? Your purpose? Or on the other hand know, deep down, your purpose, and feel utterly helpless to accomplish it?
That’s where I’m at. Feeling helpless to accomplishing my purpose. My goal in life. My calling. I can see it. I know what it is. And yet, I cannot seem [...]
Big Girl Panties
I’ve GOT to get that waaaaah post off the top.
Bottom line is this. I have a job. Perhaps something will fall into my lap. Perhaps not. Perhaps I’ll spend the next 4 years paying off student loan debts off from an away from home job. So be it.
I’ve got my Big Girl Panties back on.
